Been reflecting over my life lately, talking to everyone I know, trying to find a real meaning... Since that day I've been taken slave by the Khans I feel that my life has no meaning other than just following my base instincts; Booze, Sex, Wanderlust... My careless way finally took a toll on me. Back with Cook-Cook and Bleda It always seemed like survival, like we were the victimized, and our victims were just "On our way". Now I know I've actually been trying to justify the unjustifiable for too long. I need to find some meaning, I need to know where to go...
Had a long conversation with Esther today. She seems to have answers for everything, How can she be so sure?! She says there's a way to find redemption, peace... But we need to go on a long journey of self-discovery first. She knows this group called "The Order of Christ", that could shelter us and teach us a way out of this hell. I've never been a religious person, aside from tribal traditions, I've never really thought about a "greater architect" like the one Esther talks about. If this is real, why we suffer so much?! Why is the world this lawless hell?! She says all the answers come with a cost, and ours is high. Well, I can't look Arthur in the face anymore after everything that happened. I gotta go...
Asked Esther to get my money from the job and tell my boss that I'm out... We hired a mercenary from the local merc company to help us in the journey. Esther will be our guiding light, the merc will help us survive, and me... Well, I still don't know what's my role in all this. I'm just a wanderer in search of truth, let's hope there's is anything out there to be found. I'm ready for the real "Frontier"...
"I'm ready for the real Frontier..."
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